"Couz -- the Unspeakable Truth"

I know someone whose life is admirable
Her love for her friends is beyond incomparable
She'll do anything to make everyone delighted
With her singing voice, everyone is thrilled.

A strong independent woman, at least, that's how she call herself
Not everyone knows, she's been hiding from her own shelf
Agonized by her own misery, she also felt the loneliness
She's indeed a true definition of genuineness

She gave her all for her family to be at ease
Not realizing that she has to find her own peace
Tangled with responsibilities, you know she's tired
But her genuine heart makes fuss expired

When you're troubled, her advices are profound
She let your spirit up, she won't let you down
She may say hurtful words, that's how she shows her love for you
Rest assured, she'll never leave you out of the blue

I thanked God for leading me to her
An extended family, felt like she's my long-lost sister
Whatever adversities life will give
We'll surely have each other for as long as we live

"Unrequited Love"

Love should be understood, not ridiculed

It should be appreciated, not neglected.

As might be expected, that's how love should supposed to be.

at certain times, loving someone is a battle against losing one's sanity

He came around in an unexpected way

I thought he's the one from God, I unceasingly pray

Everything seems so perfect, I thought it was infinite

Whenever I'm with him, my happiness seems definite

I hated myself for investing so much feelings

For a relationship that is uncertain

Not realizing the kind of hurt I'll feel

After finding out he wasn't true, after all, for his feelings

I was wrecked, lost and drowned

Felt like bearing the weight of the earth, I was so down

How will I ever know if his love is true

When all he did was to break me, through and through

Call me pathetic, yes, I've done dumb things

I want him back, charmed by his promises

Fragile as glass. Yes, I was!

Consumed my pride 'cuz I thought forever will last

Imprisoned in the sad reality

I was darn used to fill his necessity

How in the world I didn't sense?

Truth is, I was blinded by his frigging existence

Smacking out my emotions onto pages to be at ease

Dedicating this to someone who used to be my main squeeze

This is not to pity oneself, by any chance

But to value your whole being which is of paramount importance

"I love but never loved"

I was trapped and can't seem to move
I am choked and I'm out of words
I can laugh but can't seemed to smile
I am lost and he's the reason why

I love but was never loved back
I asked because I don't understand, why?
Is loving someone a choice?
or should I ask, why can't he love me back?

I did bad moves and dumb decisions
'cuz I want to show him how I created my vision
With me and him, together we can reckon
The adversities of life though it was just my assumption

Surely, loving him was never my option
I was stung by the poison of love
My heart swelled and can barely take a move
As if I'm half dead, every time he takes a motion

I don't know how it all started
Holding on to something
and someone 'til the end
When I know in the first place it's not gonna happen.

I just feel like, whatever it is
I should not be ridiculed and judged 
Yes, keeping this feeling is dreadful
But I'm sure enjoying this ride to an uncertain destination

CATMON AND THE HIDDEN TREASURE OF BEAUTY

We TRAVEL!

It was then a bright Saturday morning when we were heading to Municipality of Catmon located in the Northern part of Cebu. We managed to book a trip a week a head, since they don't accept visitors/cutomers without booking first that is, to control the number of people and to maintain the solemnity of the area. The hidden paradise is called "ISOY Hot Spring", which was named after its owner. It was then a tiring day for us, for we planned to go there after our graveyard shift. As we arrived in our place of destination, I was slightly impressed with the cleanliness that the CATMON people managed to maintain. We took some time to take pictures in some places and after that we went over to our accomodation in CATMON COOPERATIVE. It was a very affordable LODGING HOUSE with enough amenities for BACKPACKERS like us. After we took our brunch, we prepared ourselves for our real purpose, which was to discover the hidden treasure in CATMON. To get there, you have to ride a HABAL-HABAL (a term used by the locals for a single motorcycle that can actually accomodate atleast 3-4 passengers including the driver). It was a kilometers away from the center of CATMON and your patience is literally a must. You will enjoy the panoramic view of the place, the moutains were like sculptured with a big hands, the breath-taking highs and lows of the mountains embodied with the light from the sun is totally an epic one.

Can I go round again?

I start by introducing myself. I’m Nikko Lour but I prefer to be called Niky because I’m more comfotable with it. I was born on June 27,1991 (too specific hehehe). I love singing, dancing and most especially, I love drinking. I’m also fond of night outs but what I love the most (just lately) is travelling. I always believe in my saying that “Travelling is not just about beautiful places and fantastic creations of God, it is also about the experience that can’t be exchanged with anything. For me, it is always about the experience with your friends and with the people you were able to meet, that would greatly help build your own you. Yes, it may sound confusing and baffling. What I’m trying to say is that, your acts when you are with them, and those cherished moments while you are with them, are so exquisite that even the most precious diamond cannot be paralleled. I am so blessed, that I have friends that support me all the time. Maybe, I can say that, they have this so-called “big impact” in my disposition, because, they don't only teach me how to be sturdy, but they also teach me how to be even sturdier. Actually, they are the ones who enthused me to make my own blog. I was afraid, before, to make my own blog because I might be slated by a lot of people. But, these are just wrong thoughts of mine. In addition, I’m the kind of person who's trying to make everybody happy, because I always want to see people, who are happy. In the office, I have a different specification. I am not a "he" nor a "she". I was then specified as “it” because as what they've said, there’s no such proper specification for me, because my gender is unidentified and I belong to the animal world ( what the heck!). For friendship purposes, I allow them to call me in a way they are comfortable with, since I’m weary of doing some refutations just to defend my sexual orientation. I made this blog not because I want to but because I love to. I want to have some space, where I can work my mind liberally and independently. Just enjoy, and I welcome you to my little space.